[God does Keith need this. More than he realized it was possible to need something with an ache that exists simultaneously in his body and heart and soul, an ache that Shiro's presence is soothing and satisfying. His fingers flex as they tangle with Shiro's, his gaze drifting over to their joined hands for a long moment. It's such a small gesture, but it sends a rush of warmth through him
He's never been one for romanticizing; on the contrary, he's more than a little cynical, but somehow this feels like it was meant to be, like all the rough and jagged, wickedly sharp edges he has have somehow found their match in the other man, fitted together like the missing pieces he never realized were missing.
His free hand lifts to tangle into Shiro's hair, at the same time he hooks both his legs around Shiro's hips, the better to move with him, to arch against with each thrust. Keith cries out, wordless, but there's no doubt at all that it's a plea for more. He doesn't care who hears. And his sense of shame is flimsy enough that he'll really only be proud that someone else knows that Shiro is his, that he's Shiro's, because he's certainly already made that promise.]
Takashi... [His name again, as thrilling as it is to use, exhaled like a prayer.] It's good... you feel so good... more... [Well. He's always been a little demanding. No help for it.]
[Every time Keith says his name in that breathy tone it short circuits what's left of his mind. He lets go of Keith's hand to bury both of his hands into his dark hair. He kisses him like it's the first and last, sinking everything into it as he picks up the pace, snapping his hips forward. He nips at Keith's bottom lip as he angles his head to make the kiss feel better.
He wants to brand this moment into him so Keith knows without a doubt he's laid his claim on him. It's ridiculously possessive. He's not usually this needy. Shiro breaks from the kiss to nip his way down his jaw, seeking anything to wring more noise out of him. His hands slide over Keith's chest, and down over his sides to grip his hips.
Where is it? He wants to hear him cry out his name. That tiny voice of reason suggests that is not a good idea and is pretty reckless. He crushes it, shifting the angle, and watching Keith's face.] Keith...
[He brushes Keith's dark hair back away from his face.] Keep telling me...what you want.
[Keith loses the better part of a moan to Shiro's lips as he returns that kiss, eager, just shy of desperate, like he's been starving for him in the short time since their lips last met. His hands lift to curl his fingers tot he nape of Shiro's neck before dropping, bracing against his shoulders. He just needs to hold on... just needs that contact because it feels like Shiro might be the only stable point in the universe right now, while everything else is rushing around him.
His head falls back to the pillow, neck arching towards that attention, voice catching on soft whimpered sounds that seem to be shaken loose every time the other man moves against him, at least until Shiro shifts his hips, at least until the next thrust of the other inside him brings his length up against that spot inside him. Keith arches, nearly rising off the bed like the artificial gravity has suddenly let go of him alone, and a sob of a sound breaks free.
His hands scramble for purchase, fingers pressing tightly to muscle as he looks up at Shiro, eyes wide, trying desperately to form words.]
[Keith had said don’t keep him waiting. And they certainly have waited to reach this point long enough. Keith is almost beyond words. He isn’t sure he will be able to keep them up either. He wants it to last but that could always be next time. The decision is easy. He has the right angle to tear every sound he wants out of him.
And like he’d thought before, they needed this. Shiro braces both hands on the bed to steady himself and builds to a fast hard rhythm. Whatever little semblance of control evaporates. The soft litany of growls and gasps cuts off as he focuses entirely on driving them to completion. He wants them both to fall over the edge together and float in a mutual bliss. He leans down to catch his lips with his, licking into his mouth. Each powerful thrust drives him closer and closer to the edge.
He isn’t going to last much longer than Keith will. That’s fine. Neither of them have to feel guilty.]
[Keith can nearly sense the change coming, like a shift in the atmosphere, that sudden flash in pressure before a storm breaks. He's almost braced for it as Shiro starts to move faster, harder, against him, inside him. Keiths's voice rises, a wordless cry that echoes about the small room and then disappears entirely because Shiro's lips are on his sand he needs to kiss him more than he needs air in his lungs.
He arches against him, rocked hard back into the mattress with each crash of those hips to his ass, his entire body trembling as he can feel the heat building low and tight in the pit of his stomach. Each movement brings Shiro plunging deep inside him, brings his own arousal trapped between both their stomachs. It's too much. He can't last, and he knows it, and he needs it.
His hands reach up, gripping at short, dark hair as much as he can, and he breaks from Shiro's lips to draw in a desperate breath of air, that he exhales in a cry of his name as he finds his release, back arching sharply, legs gripping tightly around him. Keith swears his vision splinters into a million pinpoints of light, like the rest of the world has disappeared entirely, and the only thing that even exists anymore is Shiro, above him, inside him, the warmth building between them.]
[The heat winds through him and the pressure that had been steadily building up until now winds tighter and tighter. Long fingered hands grip his hair and he jerks his head up at the same time Keith breathes in. He dips his head down, nipping at his jaw and his name washes into his ear.
Keith tenses below him, body bent like a bow and his toned thighs gripping him, pulling him in. Then it's like the world shatters and he buries his face against Keith's neck, biting down to silence his own cry. His release hits him like a wave and he wraps his arms around Keith as it tears every thought apart. There's just them.
Keith around him and under him, hands in his hair clenching almost too tightly. Then it ebbs, like the sea drawing back. Shiro sinks down, his cheek against Keith's. He feels exhausted and drunk, with no strength to get up. In a minute he'll have to. They need to clean up before they sleep.
When he remembers how to speak again. He runs his fingers up and down Keith's arm as he finally manages to murmur.]
[Keith clings to Shiro like he's certain he'll be swept off into deep space never to be heard from again if he dares to let go. And honestly he doesn't want to let go, doesn't want to let Shiro out of his arms at all in the moment. He's too busy waiting for his heart to remember how to beat in some semblance of rhythm, waiting for the breath in his lungs to feel like enough, for the rush of pleasure that rolls through him in almost violent little aftershock in the wake of his release to ease.
And slowly they do. The world settles back in around him, but most importantly, the piece that had never faded away, Shiro warm and real and close. He turns towards him, a nuzzle he barely realizes he's doing at first.
He shivers pleasnatly under the simple touch of those fingers, like his skin is still one live wire, but there's a contented smile finding its way over his lips, relaxed in a way that Keith so rarely is. All his usual defenses are down -- and while Shiro has always been the one person he's let his walls down around at all, this goes beyond that somehow.]
Yeah. Mostly... [He teases, his hands moving to run down along Shiro's back, legs slowly unwinding from around his hips.]
That was... [He trails off because how is he even supposed to put it into words?] ...perfect. [Well. That'll do for now. And he wants to say more; wants to tell Shiro that he loves him, has always, will always love him. But somehow love feels like it's in a foreign language, will it sound strange coming from him?]
[He lifts himself enough to slip out of Keith and deal with the condom. He ties it off and tosses it into the trash-bin as he lays back down. He grins at him, unguarded in a way he hasn't been since the Garrison. He's a bit worn at the edges but, still Shiro. He rolls to the side and wraps his arms around Keith to pull him up against his chest. ] It was. And so is this.
[He slides his fingers into Keith's hair and nuzzles his neck with a happy sigh. He's not going to question their good fortune to finally be here together.]
Are you up for a shower before we get some sleep or, want to do that tomorrow? [He'll go for either way, even his tone suggests it. For Keith, he'll muster up the energy for it.]
[Oh. Keith is all too happy to let himself be pulled in, to settle up close and content and warm against Shiro's chest. This... this he could definitely get used to. He wants to get used to it, to being in Shiro's arms. Keith can't remember the last time he felt like he was where he belonged, but right here, right now, he does.]
Yeah...
[This is perfect too. He agrees, even as his eyes fall shut, his own arm winding around Shiro, fingers tracing their way up along his back, tracing absent-minded patterns over skin, touching just for the sake of touching.
He turns his head to catch Shiro's lips with his own, a softer, sweeter kiss than the rather heated ones they'd been trading most recently.]
...probably should, right? [Shower that is. But...] ...'m really comfortable. [And somehow the idea of extricating himself from Shiro's arms sounds like a monumental task, and Keith is not sure he's a strong enough man for it.]
[He runs a hand up and down Keith's back, running his fingers over faint scars he can pick out in the dimming light. The castle entering its night cycle. He murmurs the code to raise the lightning a tick so they can still see without any strain.
Keith turns his head and he meets him halfway, his hand stilling in the middle of Keith's back. The kiss is slow and sweet. His heart rate slows down. When they part he almost doesn't register Keith is talking. Shiro reaches for the covers and pulls them up over them. ]
In the morning it is. [That will be a morning and a half. He's looking forward to it. Shiro murmurs again this time to dim the lights so they can sleep. He smiles sleepily all his exhaustion of the day's events older and recent hitting him at once.] ...I love you, Keith. I didn't say it directly before and I wanted you to hear it now.
Good... [In the morning, which means he can stay right where he is, settling in once Shiro pulls the blankets up, warm and more content than he can remember being. It's almost too much somehow, like he can't quite believe that he's actually this lucky, that this is okay for him to have. It's everything he's ever wanted, and Keith is the sort of mess that is still dealing with a small voice at the back of his mind that is waiting for the other shoe to drop.
But that doesn't stop him from settling in, sleepy himself, body tired and aching pleasantly in a way that promises he'll be sore tomorrow but he can't bring himself to mind at all. Of course, then Shiro speaks again and Keith's entire body jolts, something that the other man will no doubt feel given how wrapped up in him Keith is. He lifts his head to look at him as best he can through the lowered lights.
Is that really okay for Shiro to say to him? But he doesn't care if it's okay or not. Shiro said it, and Keith is going to hold to it greedily. It takes him a minute to find his voice, or at least to get the words out past where his heart has leaped into his throat.] I love you too. So much, and I... yeah. I do.
[Nailed it. He's mentally groaning at himself stuttering over the sentiment, but in his defense, it's the first time he's ever spoken the words. Not his fault he's clumsy with them.]
[He waits in the suddenly tense silence until Keith speaks. The tension drains away as he brushes his hair back out of his eyes.] I know you do.
I never doubted that for a second. [His faith is there as bright as always. The depths of his best friend turned lover's feelings had been a welcome surprise but he never doubted Keith loved him. He leans in and kisses the edge of his jaw. He settles back in the bed with a murmur,]
...I'm glad this bed is big enough for both of us. I'm not letting go of you tonight.
[Sorry, Shiro. Keith has a certain talent for creating tension out of absolutely nothing. But this tension was more surprise at hearing the words that he's wanted to hear, that he's been turning over and over in his own mind, not quite brave enough to get them past his lips until just here, just now -- and then only because Shiro had been brave enough first.
Keith's expression relaxes again as Shiro speaks. He's lucky, he thinks, that Shiro can read him so well -- because he loses so much in his own translation sometimes. Keith feels things with an intensity that sometimes gets the better of him, that twists up what he means and what he means to say. He tries, but it's too often a mess, too often an explosion when it ought to be peaceable.]
Like you had a choice... [Keith grins as he settles himself in and sets his head on Shiro's chest. Not bad, as pillows go.] In fact you should probably get used to it.
You say that like it's a bad thing. [He pulls the covers a little higher up and makes himself comfortable. He'd guessed right. Slowly bit by bit he's learning how to match the differences in Keith...with the differences in himself. He loves him more than he can put into words. It was good to get that out in the open.]
I'm open to whatever you want to try or do, Keith. Especially if it's me. [He grins and quirks one eyebrow before adding.] Tomorrow.
Or we'll sleep in until noon. [He doubts either of them have the energy for a second round anyway. They both have to get settled into this new situation and duty will call before any thing else. He rests a hand on Keith's back.]
Let's get some sleep. Or we'll sleep in until noon because we were up all night talking. [He wants to keep talking but they really need to sleep. Especially Keith. He's had a pretty hard day.]
[Keith is settled in, terribly comfortable, and then Shiro keeps talking and his eyes snap open. Did... did he just? He did, right? Keith's shoulders shake in a silent laugh, and he tightens his arm around him.]
Yeah well, I definitely want to do you. For the record.
[Another shake of shoulders before he shakes his head.] Tomorrow.
[He settles back in, eyes falling mostly shut almost immediately.] Though sleeping until noon doesn't exactly sound terrible... not a very persuasive threatened consequence. [But Keith gets it. They have things to do in the morning, responsibilities that will call, friends that will undoubtedly have questions -- at least when they see Keith returned.] Guess you're right though.
[Keith smiles to himself though, at little more than the thought of sleeping like this, curled into Shiro where he can hear each breath he takes, the faint echo of his heartbeat, can know that he's safe and all right for certain in the moment. And even better is the thought of opening his eyes and finding Shiro still there come tomorrow morning.] Besides, I'm looking forward to waking up with you.
Me too. I think...it will become...the favorite part of our day... [His head feels clear. It's nice. Shiro presses a kiss to the side of Keith's head and shuts his eyes at last. He wants to wake up the next day knowing Keith is home and safe.
His breathing evens out as he sinks down into sleep, his fingers tangled in Keith's hair.]
[To open his eyes and see Shiro, safe and sound and breathing. And whatever is wrong, whatever might happen, Keith is going to be around to make sure they figure it out, fix it. Maybe that's over simplifying, but he's feeling optimistic about it.
How could he not, right here, right now? So he shuts his eyes fully and exhales a soft,] Love you... [Because it bears repeating, before sleep gets a hold on him as well.]
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He's never been one for romanticizing; on the contrary, he's more than a little cynical, but somehow this feels like it was meant to be, like all the rough and jagged, wickedly sharp edges he has have somehow found their match in the other man, fitted together like the missing pieces he never realized were missing.
His free hand lifts to tangle into Shiro's hair, at the same time he hooks both his legs around Shiro's hips, the better to move with him, to arch against with each thrust. Keith cries out, wordless, but there's no doubt at all that it's a plea for more. He doesn't care who hears. And his sense of shame is flimsy enough that he'll really only be proud that someone else knows that Shiro is his, that he's Shiro's, because he's certainly already made that promise.]
Takashi... [His name again, as thrilling as it is to use, exhaled like a prayer.] It's good... you feel so good... more... [Well. He's always been a little demanding. No help for it.]
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He wants to brand this moment into him so Keith knows without a doubt he's laid his claim on him. It's ridiculously possessive. He's not usually this needy. Shiro breaks from the kiss to nip his way down his jaw, seeking anything to wring more noise out of him. His hands slide over Keith's chest, and down over his sides to grip his hips.
Where is it? He wants to hear him cry out his name. That tiny voice of reason suggests that is not a good idea and is pretty reckless. He crushes it, shifting the angle, and watching Keith's face.] Keith...
[He brushes Keith's dark hair back away from his face.] Keep telling me...what you want.
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His head falls back to the pillow, neck arching towards that attention, voice catching on soft whimpered sounds that seem to be shaken loose every time the other man moves against him, at least until Shiro shifts his hips, at least until the next thrust of the other inside him brings his length up against that spot inside him. Keith arches, nearly rising off the bed like the artificial gravity has suddenly let go of him alone, and a sob of a sound breaks free.
His hands scramble for purchase, fingers pressing tightly to muscle as he looks up at Shiro, eyes wide, trying desperately to form words.]
Like... like that. Don't stop. Please...
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And like he’d thought before, they needed this. Shiro braces both hands on the bed to steady himself and builds to a fast hard rhythm. Whatever little semblance of control evaporates. The soft litany of growls and gasps cuts off as he focuses entirely on driving them to completion. He wants them both to fall over the edge together and float in a mutual bliss. He leans down to catch his lips with his, licking into his mouth. Each powerful thrust drives him closer and closer to the edge.
He isn’t going to last much longer than Keith will. That’s fine. Neither of them have to feel guilty.]
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He arches against him, rocked hard back into the mattress with each crash of those hips to his ass, his entire body trembling as he can feel the heat building low and tight in the pit of his stomach. Each movement brings Shiro plunging deep inside him, brings his own arousal trapped between both their stomachs. It's too much. He can't last, and he knows it, and he needs it.
His hands reach up, gripping at short, dark hair as much as he can, and he breaks from Shiro's lips to draw in a desperate breath of air, that he exhales in a cry of his name as he finds his release, back arching sharply, legs gripping tightly around him. Keith swears his vision splinters into a million pinpoints of light, like the rest of the world has disappeared entirely, and the only thing that even exists anymore is Shiro, above him, inside him, the warmth building between them.]
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Keith tenses below him, body bent like a bow and his toned thighs gripping him, pulling him in. Then it's like the world shatters and he buries his face against Keith's neck, biting down to silence his own cry. His release hits him like a wave and he wraps his arms around Keith as it tears every thought apart. There's just them.
Keith around him and under him, hands in his hair clenching almost too tightly. Then it ebbs, like the sea drawing back. Shiro sinks down, his cheek against Keith's. He feels exhausted and drunk, with no strength to get up. In a minute he'll have to. They need to clean up before they sleep.
When he remembers how to speak again. He runs his fingers up and down Keith's arm as he finally manages to murmur.]
Keith? Still with me?
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And slowly they do. The world settles back in around him, but most importantly, the piece that had never faded away, Shiro warm and real and close. He turns towards him, a nuzzle he barely realizes he's doing at first.
He shivers pleasnatly under the simple touch of those fingers, like his skin is still one live wire, but there's a contented smile finding its way over his lips, relaxed in a way that Keith so rarely is. All his usual defenses are down -- and while Shiro has always been the one person he's let his walls down around at all, this goes beyond that somehow.]
Yeah. Mostly... [He teases, his hands moving to run down along Shiro's back, legs slowly unwinding from around his hips.]
That was... [He trails off because how is he even supposed to put it into words?] ...perfect. [Well. That'll do for now. And he wants to say more; wants to tell Shiro that he loves him, has always, will always love him. But somehow love feels like it's in a foreign language, will it sound strange coming from him?]
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[He slides his fingers into Keith's hair and nuzzles his neck with a happy sigh. He's not going to question their good fortune to finally be here together.]
Are you up for a shower before we get some sleep or, want to do that tomorrow? [He'll go for either way, even his tone suggests it. For Keith, he'll muster up the energy for it.]
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Yeah...
[This is perfect too. He agrees, even as his eyes fall shut, his own arm winding around Shiro, fingers tracing their way up along his back, tracing absent-minded patterns over skin, touching just for the sake of touching.
He turns his head to catch Shiro's lips with his own, a softer, sweeter kiss than the rather heated ones they'd been trading most recently.]
...probably should, right? [Shower that is. But...] ...'m really comfortable. [And somehow the idea of extricating himself from Shiro's arms sounds like a monumental task, and Keith is not sure he's a strong enough man for it.]
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Keith turns his head and he meets him halfway, his hand stilling in the middle of Keith's back. The kiss is slow and sweet. His heart rate slows down. When they part he almost doesn't register Keith is talking. Shiro reaches for the covers and pulls them up over them. ]
In the morning it is. [That will be a morning and a half. He's looking forward to it. Shiro murmurs again this time to dim the lights so they can sleep. He smiles sleepily all his exhaustion of the day's events older and recent hitting him at once.] ...I love you, Keith. I didn't say it directly before and I wanted you to hear it now.
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But that doesn't stop him from settling in, sleepy himself, body tired and aching pleasantly in a way that promises he'll be sore tomorrow but he can't bring himself to mind at all. Of course, then Shiro speaks again and Keith's entire body jolts, something that the other man will no doubt feel given how wrapped up in him Keith is. He lifts his head to look at him as best he can through the lowered lights.
Is that really okay for Shiro to say to him? But he doesn't care if it's okay or not. Shiro said it, and Keith is going to hold to it greedily. It takes him a minute to find his voice, or at least to get the words out past where his heart has leaped into his throat.] I love you too. So much, and I... yeah. I do.
[Nailed it. He's mentally groaning at himself stuttering over the sentiment, but in his defense, it's the first time he's ever spoken the words. Not his fault he's clumsy with them.]
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I never doubted that for a second. [His faith is there as bright as always. The depths of his best friend turned lover's feelings had been a welcome surprise but he never doubted Keith loved him. He leans in and kisses the edge of his jaw. He settles back in the bed with a murmur,]
...I'm glad this bed is big enough for both of us. I'm not letting go of you tonight.
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[Sorry, Shiro. Keith has a certain talent for creating tension out of absolutely nothing. But this tension was more surprise at hearing the words that he's wanted to hear, that he's been turning over and over in his own mind, not quite brave enough to get them past his lips until just here, just now -- and then only because Shiro had been brave enough first.
Keith's expression relaxes again as Shiro speaks. He's lucky, he thinks, that Shiro can read him so well -- because he loses so much in his own translation sometimes. Keith feels things with an intensity that sometimes gets the better of him, that twists up what he means and what he means to say. He tries, but it's too often a mess, too often an explosion when it ought to be peaceable.]
Like you had a choice... [Keith grins as he settles himself in and sets his head on Shiro's chest. Not bad, as pillows go.] In fact you should probably get used to it.
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I'm open to whatever you want to try or do, Keith. Especially if it's me. [He grins and quirks one eyebrow before adding.] Tomorrow.
Or we'll sleep in until noon. [He doubts either of them have the energy for a second round anyway. They both have to get settled into this new situation and duty will call before any thing else. He rests a hand on Keith's back.]
Let's get some sleep. Or we'll sleep in until noon because we were up all night talking. [He wants to keep talking but they really need to sleep. Especially Keith. He's had a pretty hard day.]
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Yeah well, I definitely want to do you. For the record.
[Another shake of shoulders before he shakes his head.] Tomorrow.
[He settles back in, eyes falling mostly shut almost immediately.] Though sleeping until noon doesn't exactly sound terrible... not a very persuasive threatened consequence. [But Keith gets it. They have things to do in the morning, responsibilities that will call, friends that will undoubtedly have questions -- at least when they see Keith returned.] Guess you're right though.
[Keith smiles to himself though, at little more than the thought of sleeping like this, curled into Shiro where he can hear each breath he takes, the faint echo of his heartbeat, can know that he's safe and all right for certain in the moment. And even better is the thought of opening his eyes and finding Shiro still there come tomorrow morning.] Besides, I'm looking forward to waking up with you.
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His breathing evens out as he sinks down into sleep, his fingers tangled in Keith's hair.]
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[To open his eyes and see Shiro, safe and sound and breathing. And whatever is wrong, whatever might happen, Keith is going to be around to make sure they figure it out, fix it. Maybe that's over simplifying, but he's feeling optimistic about it.
How could he not, right here, right now? So he shuts his eyes fully and exhales a soft,] Love you... [Because it bears repeating, before sleep gets a hold on him as well.]