[Something in the simple, sweet little touch of those lips to his palm has Keith's heart threatening to seize up in his chest. No one in his life has ever touched him or looked at him this way, with so much affection, like somehow he's someone special. It's almost too much to handle.
Keith half opens his mouth to remind Shiro that he's allowed to want things for his own sake and not just other people's, but the thought is derailed by what Shiro says next, then further shattered when he meets that gaze. Keith can't explain why, but something about calling the other man by name sets an oddly fluttery feeling low in his stomach. Not playing fair.]
Takashi... [He repeats in that moment before Shiro's mouth is on his, before he's arching up to meet that kiss like he needs it to survive, arms winding around him, fingers pressing tightly into the muscle of his back, nails digging into skin more than he means to. Shiro isn't getting out of this unscathed. Keith voices a wordless moan softly, lost in the midst of the kiss, slowly dragging his nails down Shiro's back.]
[He groans, the sound partly muffled by the kiss and arches into the nails dragging down his skin leaving trails of heat in their wake. It's been a long time since anyone used his name. Hearing it again and knowing the man that said it is as incredible as Keith. His Keith...
He presses into the kiss, eagerly deepening it as he carefully tilts Keith's head with his hand to make it better for both of them. He's never loved anyone and been loved in return like this. He slips one hand down up under a warm thigh and urges it to move to the side.
He pops the cap of the lube as he reluctantly draws back from the kiss with a shudder. Shiro rests his forehead against his to catch his breath.] Spread your thighs a little more? I'm going to get you ready.
[He meets his eyes and smiles, a little embarrassed but happy.]
[How long has Shiro been the exception to every rule for Keith? Keith has never been one for physical contact, for heartfelt embraces or simple, physical gestures -- except with Shiro. Keith has never been good at falling and following anyone else's lead -- except with Shiro. Keith has never had anyone that he's trusted so completely, who's believed in him, who has always, ultimately, been his place to belong... except for Shiro. Keith loves him, more than he's managed to put into words yet. But he will, god he will, because he wants, needs, Shiro to know it.
Even now, as he tilts his head at that urging, very nearly purring his approval to the older man's lips, he's entirely pliant in a way he's never really been.
A soft, shaky breath as the kiss breaks, and violet eyes open to fix a half-dazed gaze on Shiro, lips parted as he tries to get his breathing back under control. He shifts his legs apart, all eagerness, no shred of hesitation. His hands map their way up along Shiro's chest, and Keith can't resist lifting his chin to steal another kiss, brief, ending with his teeth catching at the other's lower lip.]
No.... [Nothing shy in Keith, nothing nervous. He's always been the type to throw himself straight into things he wants, and he's never wanted anything half as much as he wants Shiro.] But I want it. I trust you.
He marvels all over again at how Keith charges head first into anything unknown. He's appreciated it on the battlefield and here in the bedroom its... It makes his heart beat faster and urges him to show him everything. And he's never seen him this relaxed and open. He did this.
He never realized how much they both needed to fall deeper into each other. Shiro brushes dark hair away from violet eyes with a happy sigh.]
...Yeah, I know you do. [He steals a brief kiss but he keeps it light. He sits up enough to shift Keith a little and pour out the right amount of lube into his palm. Leaning over Keith he nips and bites at his neck, between warning him.]
It will be a little cold. Just relax. [He's careful as he slips his fingers down and spreads lube around his entrance. Shiro draws back from Keith's neck to check his face when he gently slides one finger inside.]
[By now Shiro has to realize that there doesn't exist a place in any universe that Keith won't follow him, and following him down this path -- that Keith has wanted to explore but been entirely too scared of it crumbling beneath his feet -- is thrilling. He's known how much he's wanted Shiro for a long while, and now he's fully aware how desperately he needs him.
And more than that, that Shiro wants him too, now that Keith has learned that, he can't, won't hold back anymore.
His head falls back as those teeth bite at his neck, and he wouldn't mind if Shiro's leaving marks, some evidence of his presence and passing that Keith can trace with idle fingers later, summon up the memory with that little tangible reminder.
Hands run up Shiro's neck, over short hair, touching because he needs to touch or he's sure he'll start trembling more than he is in excited (and nervous) anticipation. He tries to relax, like Shiro's said, take sa shaky breath that catches as that finger begins to press inside him.]
A-ah... [Not a word, just a sound, one that slips past parted lips before he realizes it. He meets the older man's gaze though, teeth pressing into his bottom lip as he nods.]
Yeah... I'm good... it's good. [It's new, and it's different and it makes him want to squirm where he's laid out, but it also makes him want more. His hands lift to frame Shiro's face. Always so gentle, always so mindful, his Shiro. Keith almost wants to remind him that he isn't delicate, but somehow, some part of him doesn't mind.]
Let me know if it stops being good. I've found...it always helps to focus on breathing. It will keep it from being overwhelming. [He can practically hear Keith telling him he's not fragile even if he doesn't say it. As if he ever needed that reminder. Shiro leans in, kissing him slowly and works his finger time with every brush of their lips. The sound he'd heard...it's like a spark of heat snapping across his senses and urging him to coax more of him.
He shamelessly leans into Keith's hands, basking in being allowed to be this close. All this is theirs and he loves it. Loves the man under him and needs him more than he has words for. He pulls back a bit to trace his other hand down the side of Keith's well-toned chest. It makes him realize Keith is trembling just a little. It seems alright. Keith would have told him if something is wrong. At least, he hopes so. His fingers slide over old scars and he watches his face for any sign what he's doing isn't welcome.
Eyes still on his, he eases a second finger inside. This time he only waits a moment before he resumes the steady roll of his wrist. He knows from experience (though it has been a while since he bottomed to anyone) the adjustment will be a little easier.]
Next time, we're going to take our time. I have so much to show you.
[Nothing will stop any of this from being overwhelming, honestly. But Keith is more than okay with that. After all, he's dealing with an embarrassingly strong flutter in his heart every time Shiro so much as looks at him, never mind when those lips are on his, when he's rising up to meet that kiss and each that follows. It's a perfect distraction, enough that the tension eases out of him, adjusting to how it feels to have that finger moving inside him.
He tries to breathe, tries to draw in a steady breath, but it shakes, leaving him in a breathless rush, a soft whimper of a moan as Shiro adds a second finger, his toes curling into the sheets beneath him. Keith is... trying to be patient. He really is. He knows he needs to be, knows that this part is important, but god he just wants to feel Shiro inside him, know what it's like to have all of him.
His own hands can't stop moving, mapping their way down along Shiro's chest, tracing the angle of each muscle, fingers lingering here and there where he can feel the shape of a scar, each a reminder of everything Shiro's been through, lived through, to be here. With him. Fingers slip down lower, reaching as best he can, his fingertips finding and tracing slow and deliberate along the length of his arousal.]
Show me everything... [Keith agrees, unable to hide how his expression lights up at next time.
But this time, this time, he squirms against the bed, hand moving to wrap around Shiro more firmly,] But this time... don't keep me waiting? Please, Takashi..?
[He hadn’t ever prepared for being in bed with Keith. It’s almost overwhelming after a year and more of unavoidable celibacy. But he’s touching just as much, licking his way into his mouth hungry for every taste of him he can get. His hand maps every line and commits them to memory. He jerks back with a groan when fingers brush over his arousal. He holds still, unable to focus on what he should be doing. It has been too long and a hand callused from holding swords...there’s a joke there somewhere but he’s too keyed up to think beyond Keith.
It’s a bit like a window into how this will go whenever Keith decides to take him instead. Or no. Just them in general sinking into each other. That sounds more accurate to his pleasure addled mind.
He removes his fingers and reaches for the bottle of lube. He can’t wait anymore. Not with Keith’s hand on him. They both aren’t going to last long. He wraps his own hand around Keith and strokes nice and slow to mirror his own touch.]
I won’t. [He lets go long enough to carefully get the condom on and pulls him a hair closer. Shiro leans over him and lines himself up, slowly pressing inside as he murmurs soft encouragements. He does take his time. He won’t hurt him. Not here.
When his hips meet the back of Keith’s thighs he runs his hands over the back of them.] Let me know when you’re good to keep going.
[Keith will have Shiro each and every way that he can possibly have him. He won't be able to let go after this, but there was no chance he'd ever let go to begin with, once he found out that these feelings were mutual -- a fact that he thinks must border on the downright miraculous, but the existence of which he is not questioning in the slightest. And maybe that's telling in its own way; one of Keith's most proficient skills is pushing people away before they have the chance to do the same to him. But that never has been the case with Shiro, never will be. He needs him too much.
A groan, probably too loud, probably bordering on being heard in the halls if he isn't careful, when that hand finds his length, hips jerking towards the touch. A sharp breath in and he smiles up at him, arms reaching up as Shiro leans over him, wrapping around him so he can press fingertips against his back, hold tightly as Shiro begins to press inside him, as he can feel his body begin to yield for him. Keith is outright clinging, like he needs something to hold onto as Shiro sinks inside him inch by inch. It borders on too much, but god it's perfect, it's what he wants, as he feels Shiro's hips flush to his thighs.
Just a moment to try to catch his breath, but his heart is beating too fast for that. Instead he shifts his leg, running it along Shiro's, deliberate until he hooks it over the older man's hip, lips stretching into a grin.] Keep going... I'm ready. Fuck me.
[He'll remember Keith's smile for the rest of his life. It's warm and belongs to him. No, them. It had taken all of his control to sink in slowly. All he had wanted to do was pull them both into a space that's theirs. The only thing left to think about would have how Keith feels and sounds, how those hands in his hair and on his body make him feel alive.
Warm hands keep him steady and that alone is almost too much. He hisses through his teeth when Keith teases him with one lovely leg runs up against his, a reminder of how much strength is under him. It almost takes his breath away. Keith's dark hair is spilled over the pillow and pupils blown, only a thin ring of violet left. He knows he isn't any better.
Shiro pulls his other leg up, letting Keith do whatever he wants with them as he draws slowly out, burying his face against Keith's neck with a groan. He wants to draw this out. Make this last. But they need this. He presses back in, starting slow to let them both get used to each other and the tempo of their breathing, their everything aligning like two parts of the same song.
Shiro reaches for and catches one of Keith's hands, pressing it to the bed and threading their fingers together. He shifts his other hand to the bed to brace himself with a low growl of Keith's name and he stopped caring who heard them about the time their clothes came off.
He can deal with possible embarrassment later. It's too late for anyone to interrupt and the door is locked. No one would be stupid enough to try with his temper being what it has been.]
[God does Keith need this. More than he realized it was possible to need something with an ache that exists simultaneously in his body and heart and soul, an ache that Shiro's presence is soothing and satisfying. His fingers flex as they tangle with Shiro's, his gaze drifting over to their joined hands for a long moment. It's such a small gesture, but it sends a rush of warmth through him
He's never been one for romanticizing; on the contrary, he's more than a little cynical, but somehow this feels like it was meant to be, like all the rough and jagged, wickedly sharp edges he has have somehow found their match in the other man, fitted together like the missing pieces he never realized were missing.
His free hand lifts to tangle into Shiro's hair, at the same time he hooks both his legs around Shiro's hips, the better to move with him, to arch against with each thrust. Keith cries out, wordless, but there's no doubt at all that it's a plea for more. He doesn't care who hears. And his sense of shame is flimsy enough that he'll really only be proud that someone else knows that Shiro is his, that he's Shiro's, because he's certainly already made that promise.]
Takashi... [His name again, as thrilling as it is to use, exhaled like a prayer.] It's good... you feel so good... more... [Well. He's always been a little demanding. No help for it.]
[Every time Keith says his name in that breathy tone it short circuits what's left of his mind. He lets go of Keith's hand to bury both of his hands into his dark hair. He kisses him like it's the first and last, sinking everything into it as he picks up the pace, snapping his hips forward. He nips at Keith's bottom lip as he angles his head to make the kiss feel better.
He wants to brand this moment into him so Keith knows without a doubt he's laid his claim on him. It's ridiculously possessive. He's not usually this needy. Shiro breaks from the kiss to nip his way down his jaw, seeking anything to wring more noise out of him. His hands slide over Keith's chest, and down over his sides to grip his hips.
Where is it? He wants to hear him cry out his name. That tiny voice of reason suggests that is not a good idea and is pretty reckless. He crushes it, shifting the angle, and watching Keith's face.] Keith...
[He brushes Keith's dark hair back away from his face.] Keep telling me...what you want.
[Keith loses the better part of a moan to Shiro's lips as he returns that kiss, eager, just shy of desperate, like he's been starving for him in the short time since their lips last met. His hands lift to curl his fingers tot he nape of Shiro's neck before dropping, bracing against his shoulders. He just needs to hold on... just needs that contact because it feels like Shiro might be the only stable point in the universe right now, while everything else is rushing around him.
His head falls back to the pillow, neck arching towards that attention, voice catching on soft whimpered sounds that seem to be shaken loose every time the other man moves against him, at least until Shiro shifts his hips, at least until the next thrust of the other inside him brings his length up against that spot inside him. Keith arches, nearly rising off the bed like the artificial gravity has suddenly let go of him alone, and a sob of a sound breaks free.
His hands scramble for purchase, fingers pressing tightly to muscle as he looks up at Shiro, eyes wide, trying desperately to form words.]
[Keith had said don’t keep him waiting. And they certainly have waited to reach this point long enough. Keith is almost beyond words. He isn’t sure he will be able to keep them up either. He wants it to last but that could always be next time. The decision is easy. He has the right angle to tear every sound he wants out of him.
And like he’d thought before, they needed this. Shiro braces both hands on the bed to steady himself and builds to a fast hard rhythm. Whatever little semblance of control evaporates. The soft litany of growls and gasps cuts off as he focuses entirely on driving them to completion. He wants them both to fall over the edge together and float in a mutual bliss. He leans down to catch his lips with his, licking into his mouth. Each powerful thrust drives him closer and closer to the edge.
He isn’t going to last much longer than Keith will. That’s fine. Neither of them have to feel guilty.]
[Keith can nearly sense the change coming, like a shift in the atmosphere, that sudden flash in pressure before a storm breaks. He's almost braced for it as Shiro starts to move faster, harder, against him, inside him. Keiths's voice rises, a wordless cry that echoes about the small room and then disappears entirely because Shiro's lips are on his sand he needs to kiss him more than he needs air in his lungs.
He arches against him, rocked hard back into the mattress with each crash of those hips to his ass, his entire body trembling as he can feel the heat building low and tight in the pit of his stomach. Each movement brings Shiro plunging deep inside him, brings his own arousal trapped between both their stomachs. It's too much. He can't last, and he knows it, and he needs it.
His hands reach up, gripping at short, dark hair as much as he can, and he breaks from Shiro's lips to draw in a desperate breath of air, that he exhales in a cry of his name as he finds his release, back arching sharply, legs gripping tightly around him. Keith swears his vision splinters into a million pinpoints of light, like the rest of the world has disappeared entirely, and the only thing that even exists anymore is Shiro, above him, inside him, the warmth building between them.]
[The heat winds through him and the pressure that had been steadily building up until now winds tighter and tighter. Long fingered hands grip his hair and he jerks his head up at the same time Keith breathes in. He dips his head down, nipping at his jaw and his name washes into his ear.
Keith tenses below him, body bent like a bow and his toned thighs gripping him, pulling him in. Then it's like the world shatters and he buries his face against Keith's neck, biting down to silence his own cry. His release hits him like a wave and he wraps his arms around Keith as it tears every thought apart. There's just them.
Keith around him and under him, hands in his hair clenching almost too tightly. Then it ebbs, like the sea drawing back. Shiro sinks down, his cheek against Keith's. He feels exhausted and drunk, with no strength to get up. In a minute he'll have to. They need to clean up before they sleep.
When he remembers how to speak again. He runs his fingers up and down Keith's arm as he finally manages to murmur.]
[Keith clings to Shiro like he's certain he'll be swept off into deep space never to be heard from again if he dares to let go. And honestly he doesn't want to let go, doesn't want to let Shiro out of his arms at all in the moment. He's too busy waiting for his heart to remember how to beat in some semblance of rhythm, waiting for the breath in his lungs to feel like enough, for the rush of pleasure that rolls through him in almost violent little aftershock in the wake of his release to ease.
And slowly they do. The world settles back in around him, but most importantly, the piece that had never faded away, Shiro warm and real and close. He turns towards him, a nuzzle he barely realizes he's doing at first.
He shivers pleasnatly under the simple touch of those fingers, like his skin is still one live wire, but there's a contented smile finding its way over his lips, relaxed in a way that Keith so rarely is. All his usual defenses are down -- and while Shiro has always been the one person he's let his walls down around at all, this goes beyond that somehow.]
Yeah. Mostly... [He teases, his hands moving to run down along Shiro's back, legs slowly unwinding from around his hips.]
That was... [He trails off because how is he even supposed to put it into words?] ...perfect. [Well. That'll do for now. And he wants to say more; wants to tell Shiro that he loves him, has always, will always love him. But somehow love feels like it's in a foreign language, will it sound strange coming from him?]
[He lifts himself enough to slip out of Keith and deal with the condom. He ties it off and tosses it into the trash-bin as he lays back down. He grins at him, unguarded in a way he hasn't been since the Garrison. He's a bit worn at the edges but, still Shiro. He rolls to the side and wraps his arms around Keith to pull him up against his chest. ] It was. And so is this.
[He slides his fingers into Keith's hair and nuzzles his neck with a happy sigh. He's not going to question their good fortune to finally be here together.]
Are you up for a shower before we get some sleep or, want to do that tomorrow? [He'll go for either way, even his tone suggests it. For Keith, he'll muster up the energy for it.]
[Oh. Keith is all too happy to let himself be pulled in, to settle up close and content and warm against Shiro's chest. This... this he could definitely get used to. He wants to get used to it, to being in Shiro's arms. Keith can't remember the last time he felt like he was where he belonged, but right here, right now, he does.]
Yeah...
[This is perfect too. He agrees, even as his eyes fall shut, his own arm winding around Shiro, fingers tracing their way up along his back, tracing absent-minded patterns over skin, touching just for the sake of touching.
He turns his head to catch Shiro's lips with his own, a softer, sweeter kiss than the rather heated ones they'd been trading most recently.]
...probably should, right? [Shower that is. But...] ...'m really comfortable. [And somehow the idea of extricating himself from Shiro's arms sounds like a monumental task, and Keith is not sure he's a strong enough man for it.]
[He runs a hand up and down Keith's back, running his fingers over faint scars he can pick out in the dimming light. The castle entering its night cycle. He murmurs the code to raise the lightning a tick so they can still see without any strain.
Keith turns his head and he meets him halfway, his hand stilling in the middle of Keith's back. The kiss is slow and sweet. His heart rate slows down. When they part he almost doesn't register Keith is talking. Shiro reaches for the covers and pulls them up over them. ]
In the morning it is. [That will be a morning and a half. He's looking forward to it. Shiro murmurs again this time to dim the lights so they can sleep. He smiles sleepily all his exhaustion of the day's events older and recent hitting him at once.] ...I love you, Keith. I didn't say it directly before and I wanted you to hear it now.
Good... [In the morning, which means he can stay right where he is, settling in once Shiro pulls the blankets up, warm and more content than he can remember being. It's almost too much somehow, like he can't quite believe that he's actually this lucky, that this is okay for him to have. It's everything he's ever wanted, and Keith is the sort of mess that is still dealing with a small voice at the back of his mind that is waiting for the other shoe to drop.
But that doesn't stop him from settling in, sleepy himself, body tired and aching pleasantly in a way that promises he'll be sore tomorrow but he can't bring himself to mind at all. Of course, then Shiro speaks again and Keith's entire body jolts, something that the other man will no doubt feel given how wrapped up in him Keith is. He lifts his head to look at him as best he can through the lowered lights.
Is that really okay for Shiro to say to him? But he doesn't care if it's okay or not. Shiro said it, and Keith is going to hold to it greedily. It takes him a minute to find his voice, or at least to get the words out past where his heart has leaped into his throat.] I love you too. So much, and I... yeah. I do.
[Nailed it. He's mentally groaning at himself stuttering over the sentiment, but in his defense, it's the first time he's ever spoken the words. Not his fault he's clumsy with them.]
[He waits in the suddenly tense silence until Keith speaks. The tension drains away as he brushes his hair back out of his eyes.] I know you do.
I never doubted that for a second. [His faith is there as bright as always. The depths of his best friend turned lover's feelings had been a welcome surprise but he never doubted Keith loved him. He leans in and kisses the edge of his jaw. He settles back in the bed with a murmur,]
...I'm glad this bed is big enough for both of us. I'm not letting go of you tonight.
[Sorry, Shiro. Keith has a certain talent for creating tension out of absolutely nothing. But this tension was more surprise at hearing the words that he's wanted to hear, that he's been turning over and over in his own mind, not quite brave enough to get them past his lips until just here, just now -- and then only because Shiro had been brave enough first.
Keith's expression relaxes again as Shiro speaks. He's lucky, he thinks, that Shiro can read him so well -- because he loses so much in his own translation sometimes. Keith feels things with an intensity that sometimes gets the better of him, that twists up what he means and what he means to say. He tries, but it's too often a mess, too often an explosion when it ought to be peaceable.]
Like you had a choice... [Keith grins as he settles himself in and sets his head on Shiro's chest. Not bad, as pillows go.] In fact you should probably get used to it.
You say that like it's a bad thing. [He pulls the covers a little higher up and makes himself comfortable. He'd guessed right. Slowly bit by bit he's learning how to match the differences in Keith...with the differences in himself. He loves him more than he can put into words. It was good to get that out in the open.]
I'm open to whatever you want to try or do, Keith. Especially if it's me. [He grins and quirks one eyebrow before adding.] Tomorrow.
Or we'll sleep in until noon. [He doubts either of them have the energy for a second round anyway. They both have to get settled into this new situation and duty will call before any thing else. He rests a hand on Keith's back.]
Let's get some sleep. Or we'll sleep in until noon because we were up all night talking. [He wants to keep talking but they really need to sleep. Especially Keith. He's had a pretty hard day.]
[Keith is settled in, terribly comfortable, and then Shiro keeps talking and his eyes snap open. Did... did he just? He did, right? Keith's shoulders shake in a silent laugh, and he tightens his arm around him.]
Yeah well, I definitely want to do you. For the record.
[Another shake of shoulders before he shakes his head.] Tomorrow.
[He settles back in, eyes falling mostly shut almost immediately.] Though sleeping until noon doesn't exactly sound terrible... not a very persuasive threatened consequence. [But Keith gets it. They have things to do in the morning, responsibilities that will call, friends that will undoubtedly have questions -- at least when they see Keith returned.] Guess you're right though.
[Keith smiles to himself though, at little more than the thought of sleeping like this, curled into Shiro where he can hear each breath he takes, the faint echo of his heartbeat, can know that he's safe and all right for certain in the moment. And even better is the thought of opening his eyes and finding Shiro still there come tomorrow morning.] Besides, I'm looking forward to waking up with you.
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Keith half opens his mouth to remind Shiro that he's allowed to want things for his own sake and not just other people's, but the thought is derailed by what Shiro says next, then further shattered when he meets that gaze. Keith can't explain why, but something about calling the other man by name sets an oddly fluttery feeling low in his stomach. Not playing fair.]
Takashi... [He repeats in that moment before Shiro's mouth is on his, before he's arching up to meet that kiss like he needs it to survive, arms winding around him, fingers pressing tightly into the muscle of his back, nails digging into skin more than he means to. Shiro isn't getting out of this unscathed. Keith voices a wordless moan softly, lost in the midst of the kiss, slowly dragging his nails down Shiro's back.]
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He presses into the kiss, eagerly deepening it as he carefully tilts Keith's head with his hand to make it better for both of them. He's never loved anyone and been loved in return like this. He slips one hand down up under a warm thigh and urges it to move to the side.
He pops the cap of the lube as he reluctantly draws back from the kiss with a shudder. Shiro rests his forehead against his to catch his breath.] Spread your thighs a little more? I'm going to get you ready.
[He meets his eyes and smiles, a little embarrassed but happy.]
Ever got off that way before?
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Even now, as he tilts his head at that urging, very nearly purring his approval to the older man's lips, he's entirely pliant in a way he's never really been.
A soft, shaky breath as the kiss breaks, and violet eyes open to fix a half-dazed gaze on Shiro, lips parted as he tries to get his breathing back under control. He shifts his legs apart, all eagerness, no shred of hesitation. His hands map their way up along Shiro's chest, and Keith can't resist lifting his chin to steal another kiss, brief, ending with his teeth catching at the other's lower lip.]
No.... [Nothing shy in Keith, nothing nervous. He's always been the type to throw himself straight into things he wants, and he's never wanted anything half as much as he wants Shiro.] But I want it. I trust you.
[With his life, his heart, his body too.]
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He marvels all over again at how Keith charges head first into anything unknown. He's appreciated it on the battlefield and here in the bedroom its... It makes his heart beat faster and urges him to show him everything. And he's never seen him this relaxed and open. He did this.
He never realized how much they both needed to fall deeper into each other. Shiro brushes dark hair away from violet eyes with a happy sigh.]
...Yeah, I know you do. [He steals a brief kiss but he keeps it light. He sits up enough to shift Keith a little and pour out the right amount of lube into his palm. Leaning over Keith he nips and bites at his neck, between warning him.]
It will be a little cold. Just relax. [He's careful as he slips his fingers down and spreads lube around his entrance. Shiro draws back from Keith's neck to check his face when he gently slides one finger inside.]
Still doing okay?
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And more than that, that Shiro wants him too, now that Keith has learned that, he can't, won't hold back anymore.
His head falls back as those teeth bite at his neck, and he wouldn't mind if Shiro's leaving marks, some evidence of his presence and passing that Keith can trace with idle fingers later, summon up the memory with that little tangible reminder.
Hands run up Shiro's neck, over short hair, touching because he needs to touch or he's sure he'll start trembling more than he is in excited (and nervous) anticipation. He tries to relax, like Shiro's said, take sa shaky breath that catches as that finger begins to press inside him.]
A-ah... [Not a word, just a sound, one that slips past parted lips before he realizes it. He meets the older man's gaze though, teeth pressing into his bottom lip as he nods.]
Yeah... I'm good... it's good. [It's new, and it's different and it makes him want to squirm where he's laid out, but it also makes him want more. His hands lift to frame Shiro's face. Always so gentle, always so mindful, his Shiro. Keith almost wants to remind him that he isn't delicate, but somehow, some part of him doesn't mind.]
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He shamelessly leans into Keith's hands, basking in being allowed to be this close. All this is theirs and he loves it. Loves the man under him and needs him more than he has words for. He pulls back a bit to trace his other hand down the side of Keith's well-toned chest. It makes him realize Keith is trembling just a little. It seems alright. Keith would have told him if something is wrong. At least, he hopes so. His fingers slide over old scars and he watches his face for any sign what he's doing isn't welcome.
Eyes still on his, he eases a second finger inside. This time he only waits a moment before he resumes the steady roll of his wrist. He knows from experience (though it has been a while since he bottomed to anyone) the adjustment will be a little easier.]
Next time, we're going to take our time. I have so much to show you.
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He tries to breathe, tries to draw in a steady breath, but it shakes, leaving him in a breathless rush, a soft whimper of a moan as Shiro adds a second finger, his toes curling into the sheets beneath him. Keith is... trying to be patient. He really is. He knows he needs to be, knows that this part is important, but god he just wants to feel Shiro inside him, know what it's like to have all of him.
His own hands can't stop moving, mapping their way down along Shiro's chest, tracing the angle of each muscle, fingers lingering here and there where he can feel the shape of a scar, each a reminder of everything Shiro's been through, lived through, to be here. With him. Fingers slip down lower, reaching as best he can, his fingertips finding and tracing slow and deliberate along the length of his arousal.]
Show me everything... [Keith agrees, unable to hide how his expression lights up at next time.
But this time, this time, he squirms against the bed, hand moving to wrap around Shiro more firmly,] But this time... don't keep me waiting? Please, Takashi..?
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It’s a bit like a window into how this will go whenever Keith decides to take him instead. Or no. Just them in general sinking into each other. That sounds more accurate to his pleasure addled mind.
He removes his fingers and reaches for the bottle of lube. He can’t wait anymore. Not with Keith’s hand on him. They both aren’t going to last long. He wraps his own hand around Keith and strokes nice and slow to mirror his own touch.]
I won’t. [He lets go long enough to carefully get the condom on and pulls him a hair closer. Shiro leans over him and lines himself up, slowly pressing inside as he murmurs soft encouragements. He does take his time. He won’t hurt him. Not here.
When his hips meet the back of Keith’s thighs he runs his hands over the back of them.] Let me know when you’re good to keep going.
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[Keith will have Shiro each and every way that he can possibly have him. He won't be able to let go after this, but there was no chance he'd ever let go to begin with, once he found out that these feelings were mutual -- a fact that he thinks must border on the downright miraculous, but the existence of which he is not questioning in the slightest. And maybe that's telling in its own way; one of Keith's most proficient skills is pushing people away before they have the chance to do the same to him. But that never has been the case with Shiro, never will be. He needs him too much.
A groan, probably too loud, probably bordering on being heard in the halls if he isn't careful, when that hand finds his length, hips jerking towards the touch. A sharp breath in and he smiles up at him, arms reaching up as Shiro leans over him, wrapping around him so he can press fingertips against his back, hold tightly as Shiro begins to press inside him, as he can feel his body begin to yield for him. Keith is outright clinging, like he needs something to hold onto as Shiro sinks inside him inch by inch. It borders on too much, but god it's perfect, it's what he wants, as he feels Shiro's hips flush to his thighs.
Just a moment to try to catch his breath, but his heart is beating too fast for that. Instead he shifts his leg, running it along Shiro's, deliberate until he hooks it over the older man's hip, lips stretching into a grin.] Keep going... I'm ready. Fuck me.
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Warm hands keep him steady and that alone is almost too much. He hisses through his teeth when Keith teases him with one lovely leg runs up against his, a reminder of how much strength is under him. It almost takes his breath away. Keith's dark hair is spilled over the pillow and pupils blown, only a thin ring of violet left. He knows he isn't any better.
Shiro pulls his other leg up, letting Keith do whatever he wants with them as he draws slowly out, burying his face against Keith's neck with a groan. He wants to draw this out. Make this last. But they need this. He presses back in, starting slow to let them both get used to each other and the tempo of their breathing, their everything aligning like two parts of the same song.
Shiro reaches for and catches one of Keith's hands, pressing it to the bed and threading their fingers together. He shifts his other hand to the bed to brace himself with a low growl of Keith's name and he stopped caring who heard them about the time their clothes came off.
He can deal with possible embarrassment later. It's too late for anyone to interrupt and the door is locked. No one would be stupid enough to try with his temper being what it has been.]
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He's never been one for romanticizing; on the contrary, he's more than a little cynical, but somehow this feels like it was meant to be, like all the rough and jagged, wickedly sharp edges he has have somehow found their match in the other man, fitted together like the missing pieces he never realized were missing.
His free hand lifts to tangle into Shiro's hair, at the same time he hooks both his legs around Shiro's hips, the better to move with him, to arch against with each thrust. Keith cries out, wordless, but there's no doubt at all that it's a plea for more. He doesn't care who hears. And his sense of shame is flimsy enough that he'll really only be proud that someone else knows that Shiro is his, that he's Shiro's, because he's certainly already made that promise.]
Takashi... [His name again, as thrilling as it is to use, exhaled like a prayer.] It's good... you feel so good... more... [Well. He's always been a little demanding. No help for it.]
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He wants to brand this moment into him so Keith knows without a doubt he's laid his claim on him. It's ridiculously possessive. He's not usually this needy. Shiro breaks from the kiss to nip his way down his jaw, seeking anything to wring more noise out of him. His hands slide over Keith's chest, and down over his sides to grip his hips.
Where is it? He wants to hear him cry out his name. That tiny voice of reason suggests that is not a good idea and is pretty reckless. He crushes it, shifting the angle, and watching Keith's face.] Keith...
[He brushes Keith's dark hair back away from his face.] Keep telling me...what you want.
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His head falls back to the pillow, neck arching towards that attention, voice catching on soft whimpered sounds that seem to be shaken loose every time the other man moves against him, at least until Shiro shifts his hips, at least until the next thrust of the other inside him brings his length up against that spot inside him. Keith arches, nearly rising off the bed like the artificial gravity has suddenly let go of him alone, and a sob of a sound breaks free.
His hands scramble for purchase, fingers pressing tightly to muscle as he looks up at Shiro, eyes wide, trying desperately to form words.]
Like... like that. Don't stop. Please...
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And like he’d thought before, they needed this. Shiro braces both hands on the bed to steady himself and builds to a fast hard rhythm. Whatever little semblance of control evaporates. The soft litany of growls and gasps cuts off as he focuses entirely on driving them to completion. He wants them both to fall over the edge together and float in a mutual bliss. He leans down to catch his lips with his, licking into his mouth. Each powerful thrust drives him closer and closer to the edge.
He isn’t going to last much longer than Keith will. That’s fine. Neither of them have to feel guilty.]
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He arches against him, rocked hard back into the mattress with each crash of those hips to his ass, his entire body trembling as he can feel the heat building low and tight in the pit of his stomach. Each movement brings Shiro plunging deep inside him, brings his own arousal trapped between both their stomachs. It's too much. He can't last, and he knows it, and he needs it.
His hands reach up, gripping at short, dark hair as much as he can, and he breaks from Shiro's lips to draw in a desperate breath of air, that he exhales in a cry of his name as he finds his release, back arching sharply, legs gripping tightly around him. Keith swears his vision splinters into a million pinpoints of light, like the rest of the world has disappeared entirely, and the only thing that even exists anymore is Shiro, above him, inside him, the warmth building between them.]
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Keith tenses below him, body bent like a bow and his toned thighs gripping him, pulling him in. Then it's like the world shatters and he buries his face against Keith's neck, biting down to silence his own cry. His release hits him like a wave and he wraps his arms around Keith as it tears every thought apart. There's just them.
Keith around him and under him, hands in his hair clenching almost too tightly. Then it ebbs, like the sea drawing back. Shiro sinks down, his cheek against Keith's. He feels exhausted and drunk, with no strength to get up. In a minute he'll have to. They need to clean up before they sleep.
When he remembers how to speak again. He runs his fingers up and down Keith's arm as he finally manages to murmur.]
Keith? Still with me?
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And slowly they do. The world settles back in around him, but most importantly, the piece that had never faded away, Shiro warm and real and close. He turns towards him, a nuzzle he barely realizes he's doing at first.
He shivers pleasnatly under the simple touch of those fingers, like his skin is still one live wire, but there's a contented smile finding its way over his lips, relaxed in a way that Keith so rarely is. All his usual defenses are down -- and while Shiro has always been the one person he's let his walls down around at all, this goes beyond that somehow.]
Yeah. Mostly... [He teases, his hands moving to run down along Shiro's back, legs slowly unwinding from around his hips.]
That was... [He trails off because how is he even supposed to put it into words?] ...perfect. [Well. That'll do for now. And he wants to say more; wants to tell Shiro that he loves him, has always, will always love him. But somehow love feels like it's in a foreign language, will it sound strange coming from him?]
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[He slides his fingers into Keith's hair and nuzzles his neck with a happy sigh. He's not going to question their good fortune to finally be here together.]
Are you up for a shower before we get some sleep or, want to do that tomorrow? [He'll go for either way, even his tone suggests it. For Keith, he'll muster up the energy for it.]
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Yeah...
[This is perfect too. He agrees, even as his eyes fall shut, his own arm winding around Shiro, fingers tracing their way up along his back, tracing absent-minded patterns over skin, touching just for the sake of touching.
He turns his head to catch Shiro's lips with his own, a softer, sweeter kiss than the rather heated ones they'd been trading most recently.]
...probably should, right? [Shower that is. But...] ...'m really comfortable. [And somehow the idea of extricating himself from Shiro's arms sounds like a monumental task, and Keith is not sure he's a strong enough man for it.]
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Keith turns his head and he meets him halfway, his hand stilling in the middle of Keith's back. The kiss is slow and sweet. His heart rate slows down. When they part he almost doesn't register Keith is talking. Shiro reaches for the covers and pulls them up over them. ]
In the morning it is. [That will be a morning and a half. He's looking forward to it. Shiro murmurs again this time to dim the lights so they can sleep. He smiles sleepily all his exhaustion of the day's events older and recent hitting him at once.] ...I love you, Keith. I didn't say it directly before and I wanted you to hear it now.
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But that doesn't stop him from settling in, sleepy himself, body tired and aching pleasantly in a way that promises he'll be sore tomorrow but he can't bring himself to mind at all. Of course, then Shiro speaks again and Keith's entire body jolts, something that the other man will no doubt feel given how wrapped up in him Keith is. He lifts his head to look at him as best he can through the lowered lights.
Is that really okay for Shiro to say to him? But he doesn't care if it's okay or not. Shiro said it, and Keith is going to hold to it greedily. It takes him a minute to find his voice, or at least to get the words out past where his heart has leaped into his throat.] I love you too. So much, and I... yeah. I do.
[Nailed it. He's mentally groaning at himself stuttering over the sentiment, but in his defense, it's the first time he's ever spoken the words. Not his fault he's clumsy with them.]
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I never doubted that for a second. [His faith is there as bright as always. The depths of his best friend turned lover's feelings had been a welcome surprise but he never doubted Keith loved him. He leans in and kisses the edge of his jaw. He settles back in the bed with a murmur,]
...I'm glad this bed is big enough for both of us. I'm not letting go of you tonight.
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[Sorry, Shiro. Keith has a certain talent for creating tension out of absolutely nothing. But this tension was more surprise at hearing the words that he's wanted to hear, that he's been turning over and over in his own mind, not quite brave enough to get them past his lips until just here, just now -- and then only because Shiro had been brave enough first.
Keith's expression relaxes again as Shiro speaks. He's lucky, he thinks, that Shiro can read him so well -- because he loses so much in his own translation sometimes. Keith feels things with an intensity that sometimes gets the better of him, that twists up what he means and what he means to say. He tries, but it's too often a mess, too often an explosion when it ought to be peaceable.]
Like you had a choice... [Keith grins as he settles himself in and sets his head on Shiro's chest. Not bad, as pillows go.] In fact you should probably get used to it.
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I'm open to whatever you want to try or do, Keith. Especially if it's me. [He grins and quirks one eyebrow before adding.] Tomorrow.
Or we'll sleep in until noon. [He doubts either of them have the energy for a second round anyway. They both have to get settled into this new situation and duty will call before any thing else. He rests a hand on Keith's back.]
Let's get some sleep. Or we'll sleep in until noon because we were up all night talking. [He wants to keep talking but they really need to sleep. Especially Keith. He's had a pretty hard day.]
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Yeah well, I definitely want to do you. For the record.
[Another shake of shoulders before he shakes his head.] Tomorrow.
[He settles back in, eyes falling mostly shut almost immediately.] Though sleeping until noon doesn't exactly sound terrible... not a very persuasive threatened consequence. [But Keith gets it. They have things to do in the morning, responsibilities that will call, friends that will undoubtedly have questions -- at least when they see Keith returned.] Guess you're right though.
[Keith smiles to himself though, at little more than the thought of sleeping like this, curled into Shiro where he can hear each breath he takes, the faint echo of his heartbeat, can know that he's safe and all right for certain in the moment. And even better is the thought of opening his eyes and finding Shiro still there come tomorrow morning.] Besides, I'm looking forward to waking up with you.
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